at 1:30am
It is always at this time of night that one does the deep introspection. Perhaps it’s because the sanity of daylight is long gone, and the distractions of life are at a minimum. That and an alcohol-induced lack of inhibition. Throw in a visit to a pretty party, and you’ve got yourself a crisis.
I’m not insecure in my life. I’ve got it pretty damned good, but I do see how it’s always a bit of a tightrope walk. If I get too lazy with things, they go south. It’s that never ending game of spinning plates-on-sticks. Lately, I’ve had way too many plates on way too many sticks.
I’ve been trying to simplify it all so I can do better with what I have. I think I’ve done a good job on a few fronts: work is good, I know where I’m going with it, and have little choice but to succeed. Love life is good: I’m single, enjoying it, but open (and ready) to whittle it down to someone special. Home is good: I love my apartment, my commute, my roommate(s), etc.
But there’s always room for improvement. So I’ve decided there are three areas I need improvement in. I’ve got some good metrics on two, but the third I’m still working on.
- Finances: I’ve been carrying around a bit of personal debt. It’s definitely above average (as I learned from FiLife), and frankly, none is acceptable. I’ve managed it reasonably well, but I’ve actually put a plan in place that will have it (or at least the floaty part of it) gone by my birthday next year, if not sooner. That should free me up to start spending some money on things I want, as well as saving for bigger stuff.
- Fitness: I discovered today that I’ve lost 10 lbs. I’m pretty sure that I lost that over the last 6 months. I’m guessing it’s due to a combination of moving stress, life stress and LOTS of walking. I’ve been working on this new fitness plan that involves massive amounts of calories and a strong exercise plan, but now I’ve started it in earnest. Comparing pictures of me from last year and this year made me very upset at myself, and being around pretty people made me kind of disgusted too. There’s no excuse for it, and it’s time to whip myself back into shape. Again, by my birthday next year, I want to look rockin.
- Friends: I’ve got just about the best friends a boy could have. They’re caring and loyal, they know I’d do anything for them, and they’d do the same for me. I wouldn’t give them up for the world, but I do need to make more. One of my biggest misses in life was not making new friends while I was in a relationship. I need to branch out a little and make some more connections, partly to diversify my social calendar, and partly as good resources for all sorts of stuff. I’m not sure how to measure success in this, though. Any thoughts?
They say that time changes things, but you actually have to change them yourself. -Andy Warhol